
The Things that He Knew . . . “let the dead bury the dead”
He asked me
if I . . .
could be
would be
loved.
Before I could answer
he asked
if I
would lay ego aside.
I was not in the mood
for a positive reply.
Remembering his remarks
from before . . .
and he, not affected
by my emotion began
to question my devotion.
It all appeared ridiculous
and callous to me.
He outwardly inflected
how he was inwardly affected
by my tales of commotion
as he carefully selected
his words . . .
so insensitive, they seemed
as my walls of protection
grew
became prominent
and I thought . . .
they shielded me
as
his words
did allude to . . .
collude to
the things that he knew
I knew
about me . . .
this . . .
bothered me
disturbed me
continually
habitually.
And ritually
perturbed me.
I convinced myself
I had
no choice
no voice
so . . .
I chose silence
and I walked away
but the words
from his tongue
stayed with me
played with me.
I did ponder them
while my mind
was hanging
with neurons banging
(mis) firing with a
surprising wonder.
Surmising . . .
I did arrive
to my own conclusions
in this deluded
self-made
isolated solution.
Yes, I took some time
and held our sacred
conversations at bay.
I held my tongue
until . . .
I had to let go
think it through
and have something
loving to say.
Remembering it all . . .
I did soon fall
upon my knees
and cried
as I recalled
the words of the Christ
who said,
“let the dead
bury the dead.”
The meaning so
clear to me
and so very
Dear to me
to be in the now
is as easy
as I choose it to be.
And to BE
that sacred “Agape”
where vision lives
within / without
above and below
is where
3rd eye sees . . . me
for who I am.
So, in the
missing of him
the Blessed
kissing of him
I realize is deeper
than any physical exchange
the spiritual growth
is winning the war.
No . . .
we were not
estranged.
The good times
that we shared
with no reason
or rhyme required
is sired by our love
unspoiled by doubt
these . . .
were in the forefront
of my thoughts
I ran to him
for I did
need to let E-go
take a ride
and just in time.
For he did know
that ego
is a
dangerous
callous
and treacherous thing.
He asked me
if I . . .
could be loved
would be loved
and then he asked
if I would lay ego aside
and lay by his side.
I did . . .
These are but the things that he knew . . .
he knew me.
© Janet P. Caldwell ~ October 13, 2012
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